I feel that i have come a point in my life where i musnt continue on any longer, There is no happiness in life itself. I find myself not sleeping, not eating not doing anything. At age 22 I feel as if I cant go on, I find myself down by the railroad tracks waiting for the train so I can throw myself into it. There just isnt no spice in life. Especially when you live alone and leave your house maybe once a month to get groceries. And your childs mother refuses to let you see your babies once they are born. There is nothing but emptiness. I have not slept in 4 days, not eaten in 3. Life is boring, life is bad. My existence as a human is over. I have not smiled in over 6 months. I thought buying things would make me happy instead it made me broke and made life even worse. I dont know what to do. I find myself listeng to music about death and dying and being unwanted. I come to you all asking for advice before I end up mortally wounding myself. I have no true friends or family. I have just one person. Meaningless Little Me on this blue rock called earth.