why am i doing this

I live an ordinary life. There are no major highs or lows in the normal course of events. I have a job. I'm not thrilled by it, but it pays (most of) the bills. I love my Probe. It's a 1989 LE, white (with rust, etc.) and it's sitting in the driveway with a broken window that will cost about $1400 (yes, one thousand four hundred dollars) to replace. Joy. Of course, that's not the only problem with it. The AC doesn't work; the driver's window will go down, but not back up; most of the rubber seals need replacement; the driver's seat is coming loose from the floor (or frame); and so on. But .I love my Probe